Changes...

I have recently been going through an almost literal phase of hell. Most know the circumstances of these happenings in my life, some know more than others. I have found that in life there are times when we are forced to do things we don't neccessarily like, but have to do in order to improve and grow. I have come to the conclusion that some ties must be severed with people. Though I may love these people or consider them good friends it is neccessary to prevail in my own life and with these certain people in my life I will only fail. I have made a committment to myself to not make mistakes this time, to not fail and to achieve the things I have been putting off.

Starting this week I am dieting. I find it easier to diet when you are depressed. This three week diet with consist of merely boost and vitamins for the first 12 days. The next 12 days will consist of a herbal/organic remedy of sorts to fully cleanse my system. After this 24 course I will then proceed to follow a stricter diet to keep my body cleansed of toxins with an organic and vegetarian diet. No more smoking, no more drinking.

As far as spiritulaity is concerned whether there is a god above or not I do not know, but as for a need to live by a moral code,I think it is neccessary. Who are we if we do not have morals? I have met many people in my walk through life. Some think sex is for fun and dating is to have something to do. I do not believe this. Sex should be special, it should be passionate, it should be committed. We as a society have been dulled down to think otherwise. I will not date for a year nor have a sexual fling with anyone. It something I need to do for me. Too many mistakes and problems come with promiscuity. Without a moral code to follow through life we fall off the path we are on and wander down other roads. Some of us never get back on the path, some get on it right before it is too late.

In a movie I watched last night with my dear friend Scottie a man asked, "What is the point of living if your life isn't worth living?" You can either take this as a go kill yourself because your life sucks or take it as a message to live a life you can be proud of. I have read a lot from Gretchen Ruben about her life and how she improved on it simply by doing certain things everyday and actually thinking about her actions. I have put up a motivation board, set my goals and have started forth on a path to be my optimum self. I will be blogging every day on my progress, bumps in the road etc. to keep those of you who read my blogs and who like to check in on me can see how things are going.